KOTOR 1 - Notes from my 2021 playthrough

WARNING: the following contains heavy spoilers about KOTOR I. Do not read it if you haven't played the game yet.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: these are loose notes from my 2021 playthrough. They are very poorly organized, as they were only ever intended for my own personal use.

ANOTHER WARNING: you saw that there were going to be spoilers, right? If you haven't played the game, stop reading now.

What about a broken Revan? A Revan that is clearly not stable or mentally well. This Revan should have been trained longer on the initial ship, but the surprise attack brought her out of the controlled environment where they were rebuilding her mind far too early. The tutorial person is really her handler, who had been trying to rebuild her brain. That's why he has to tell her basic stuff like how to open a chest. They were pretty much on Day 0 when the attack came. So without being "fixed", she's erratic, impulsive, and inconsistent.

She bonds with Bastilla, because Bastilla reminds her of some of the good parts of her previous life. But part of her knows that Bastilla had been her enemy. So she sometimes lashes out. She's attracted to Carth, because his military training and sense of purpose resonate with her previous life. But she's repulsed by his whining because part of her still despises weakness. Similarly, she treats different people differently depending on which part of her is responding. And because she doesn't realize she even has multiple parts, there's no predictability.

Basically, she spends the whole game figuring out who and what she is, responding to people and situations based not on the present conditions or mission, but on which part of her past they bring out. She's the Jedi Revan, and the Sith Revan and the Republic General Revan all at once, and these three competing aspects struggle within her.

She's whatever class uses lots of Force powers. And she uses the wildest ones, wildly. She's an unrestrained force of nature, an untamed beast on vaguely aware of its power.

What does she do when she learns she was Revan? Should be interesting.

This Revan could go really Dark early in the game, not because she's evil but because she's confused and hurting. Much of the Jedi's "training" is about mental discipline to resist the Dark Side, and she has NONE of that. After learning she's Revan - maybe she embraces the Dark Side knowingly, or maybe she rejects it. Whatever she does, she finally does it consciously, as a whole person. Not sure if that happens right after learning she's Revan, or if it takes until the Temple top or even on the Star Forge before she makes up her mind.

Name: Revena

Personality:

• erratic
• easily angered
• manipulative - can act empathetic to gain an advantage, but happily throws people away when it suits her
• distractible
• always confident she's right, even when she's contradicting the last thing she said
• insightful in an instinctive way (WIS), but not a coherent analytical (INT) one
• intuitively understands the big picture, but gets a lot of the small ones wrong
• seemingly blunders into the right thing (high WIS) but often goes about it poorly (low INT)
• charismatic and inspiring in an unapologetic "forget everything else and follow me" kind of way
• almost multiple personalities. Can switch between acting like Jedi Revan to General Revan to Sith Revan without notice, or even realizing it
• doesn't even seem to understand Light Side vs Dark Side. Alternates between treating it as a game/challenge or just doesn't get it
• mostly unconcerned with personal safety or safety of companions, but has unpredictable moments of great fear/empathy
• ruled by feelings of the moment, but those turn out to work pretty well
• can be petty, greedy, and hateful, but also self-sacrificing and magnanimous.
• thinks having money/power is pretty fun, but without a real long-term agenda. Mostly just for the feeling of it.
• really, really hates losing